"Be yourself. Everyone else is already taken." -Oscar WildeBe yourself. For years I thought I had. High school, I prided myself on being a leader and not following in the line of a lot of my friends. I had a strong will, head strong, hard headed, you get the gist. Now, as an adult-who is approaching 30 in exactly 52 days- I'm not so sure.
What does it mean to be yourself? Do you find yourself? Do you come to peace with yourself? Or, do you just close your eyes and pick a style and just roll with it? How do you know if you're too old or too young to act a certain way? To dress a certain way. What exactly determines that in the first place? You see my dilemma? I have far too many questions. A few years ago, not so much. I was okay with how life had turned out. How I handled it and how I was able to move on from all the traumatic experiences in my lifetime. My much earlier lifetime. Or, so I thought. So, I came up with the brilliant idea of starting a blog. I've always written. I've always put my music on and let that pen dance along that paper till all my thoughts, worries and stresses just flowed out of me like a ballerina on stage. When I would get in the mood to write, it would just flow. I wouldn't know what I put down until I read it for the first time.
In these blogs there are going to be some truths, some secrets, some lies and some fantasies. The crazy thing is, It's all going to be true. My life story has been one for the ages. A classic tale of abandonment, remorse, resentment, love, lust, hate, anger, healing, sadness, regret, and so so much more. Only to get to where we are now and see where this wonderful world will take us. The past has already been written. Now, all we can do is tell it. In hopes that someone will read it and be able to take from it, what I couldn't. Until now.
I hope you come along for my journey. It's going to be a roller coaster. I am a random, yet, level headed person. I'm going through changes just like you. I have questions, so many questions. And, maybe together, we can figure out the answers. I hope you like what I bring for you.
